Wednesday, August 09, 2006

They're still trying to schedule the biopsy for Friday, but we've changed from Mercy to Baptist because Mercy doesn't take my insurance. I hope they realize tomorrow is Thursday... little joke there, hehehe. Gotta laugh sometimes. Hubby and I went out for Mexican food tonight in preparation for my extreme diet makeover. For the next week, I'm going to eat my favs - Johnny Carino's, a big juicy hamburger, pizza maybe. I have to be careful because if I eat too poorly, it has digestive consequences. Those of you as firmly in your forties as me know what I mean.

I ordered Diana Dyer's book yesterday. She's a dietician who had advanced cancer similar to mine and beat it through diet.

Sometimes, like now, this seems so unreal. I think, what the hell am I doing? This can't be me. This isn't my life. I have a great talent for avoiding the unpleasant, and I feel myself slipping into that mode sometimes. Then it all comes back to me. Wow.

Then other times I want to get the testing all done and dive into the thick of the battle.

*sigh* Things will progress at the speed they want to and not the speed I'd prefer.

Don't mind me. I'm tired and a bit melancholy tonight, so I think I'll head off to bed, watch some TV, and drift off. Sweet dreams, everyone!


3 flies caught in my web:

Jo Smith said...

Night little one,

I hope you enjoy your trip and for next weekend eat a slice of pizza for me.

Have a sweet sleep and know your in God's hands.

See you in September

Laura said...

We love you very much pinkie. Wish I were there with you.

Di said...

I got a sheet of three recipes in the mail from the National Foundation for Cancer Research. Their website is where they have posted several different kinds of info. What interested me after what you mentioned about Diane Dyer's book is their articles with the recipes called "Recipes for Life!" They include info about the healthful benefits of the different foods included in the recipes.